For the past few days, there’s been severe storms every single night, which is really annoying, since it interrupts my work. Whenever there’s a bad storm, my dad always wants me to shut down the computer because he’s afraid it’ll get fried by lightning or something. Yes, there a chance, but damn, it doesn’t happen often. D:

Well, yesterday, I experienced driving through a storm at night! I’m eighteen, ready to go off to college in two months, and yet I’ve never driven at night or in a storm. That tells you how deprived and sheltered I am, haha. I can’t even navigate by myself in unknown towns.

Aside from storms, for several months now, I’ve been in an art block. I think it started in March or something when I became obsessed with knitting. It’s been lasting for so long now. I just don’t have the motivation to draw anything, even if I have ideas for a new drawing. Sometimes I wonder if this stage will last forever or something and if I REALLY do want to become an illustrator.

I’m doing a commission for someone (and I’m almost done) and I must say that I’m still not very motivated to draw. Clients get nitpicky of what they want (but hey, it’s their drawing, so I guess the have a right to be, lol) and sometimes I just want to let my creativity run wild. With clients, you can’t do that. It has to be exactly what they want, since they’re the ones forking over the money. I guess that’s the life of an illustrator. Makes me wonder, “Do I really want this to be my career? Do I really want my creativity restricted like this?” People would probably tell me, “Shut up and live with it.”

Maybe I should just restrict what I will actually draw. Since I like surreal mixed with realism, maybe I should only accept commissions like that. I dunno.

Oh yeah, soon I’d better start painting with acrylics and such. I’m always avoiding it because I hate paint, but if I want to become an artist, I have to be fluent in some of the major mediums.